..dear diary..

It's been a while since i last updated...
things had not been goin fine...
for my dear princess,
our plan to the zoo was canceled.

here is how the story goes... (this is going to be a long long one..)
there will be 3 chapters here...

CHAPTER 1

we were planning to wake up early in the morning to prepare
some snacks to be brought over to the zoo..
the funny part is that we are going to surprise each other with the snacks,
but in the end, its the same snacks that we are gonna bring...

i began charging my camera battery,
choosing my clothes,
everything was ready in the bag..
ready to go... i ask princess to sleep early.. coz we got a long day ahead..
so we did...

but..
while sleeping
i had a bad dream, a nightmare...
i was scared till i woke up in the middle of the night..
and i can sense that something told me to check my hp...
so i did...

2 sms from princess..
saying tat papa was vormitting blood...
and was in pain ...

i called princess.. she was in the ambulance...
i was very worried ...
i did sms her and accompany her smsing till i fell asleep...

i know tat the trip for us is cancelled...
i understand and i thank god that we didnt even go to the zoo...
what happen if we were there and papa was alone at home in pain???

few hours later i rushed down to the hospital...
met princess... 1 look at her face, i know tat she is not ok..
i sat down with her at the lobby...
she told me about papa's condition...
i hold her hand tight...
and tears went falling down her cheek...

i was there for her..
and she knows it...
i ask her to be strong...


i went up to see papa...
he was weak... i was sad..
den while papa went for scope,
i ask princess to eat. she looks pale...
i try to make her happy and smile..
so she will eat.. alhamdulillah.. she ate...

after that, her relatives all came.. i was in the corner..
standing still... and was praying hard for papa..
at that tyme it was dawn...
around 7 plus...
i berdoa...
i felt like crying when i saw papa cry...
but i tahan...
i cant be crying at that tyme...
nanti orang cakap ape lak..

kalau boleh i nak sebelah papa..
nak hold his hand..
telling him to be strong and bacakan fateha...

but takut nanti sedara mara cakap ape lak..
belom ape2 dah buat cam tu...

but what i did is just look at him...
and i say prayers...

den, around 8 plus we went home...
mama, princess and me went to west coast to eat..
mama was very hungry..
kesian seh mama...

den we went home...

CHAPTER 2

i was off for 2 days...
so i went to accompany princess at the hospital again..
i miss her sooo much ..
and i happy to see papa looking abit more fresher...

den i sat down with princess...
reading the wedding magazine..
and try to find budget package for our wedding day...
it was fun...
at least princess can be stress free being with me around...
discussing.. :)

everything was ok..

we went home after that...

CHAPTER 3..

nowadays..
princess is sick..
i was worried...
and she now says he back pain..
i know... how she feels..
its kindda tired pegi balik pegi balik hospital..

very very tired..
blakang pon sakit seh..

haiz..
i really hope she is fine..
i want her to take care of herself..
have proper meals..

i love her sooo much..

and i want to be with her...

i pray for herslf too...
for her safety.. for her health..
and for everything..

AMIN...

may allah bless us...
and may he hear our prayers...

Love,
Prince